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What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?

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  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh wow. No words , bhai you really deserved it. Whole forumias community is having goosebumps and are proud of you

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    ke I always has been in such things) , they saw me once with empathetic eyes and left for their room and closed the bolt. My eyes was back to screen and heart back to basics.

    kya tau !! sachi me thora sa gala choke kardiya aapne...aur 2-3 drops rolled over my cheek .... 🙂
    bravo !!

    ps: this is nakli yo yo from that telegram gp. 🙂

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh You took us on an emotional ride, buddy. I don't think I have come across such a touching account before. God bless you. 🙏

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh congrats once again!....aapne to emotional kar diya humko....🙂

  • @HAZE
    Madam on Quora u have written that u were disciplined and followed 10:30-6 sleep patter....
    U really did this for over a year ?
    If it is really possible to be so much disciplined, then I will also try to incorporate your shared points of that post...
    TIA

  • @safari can u share the post link

  • @Urvashi said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    @safari can u share the post link

    Let me try.... Grab it quickly.... Else mods will delete it

  • @safari no one will delete such motivational and good thing else you advertise !! don't wry 😄

  • @safari thanks !! 🙂 I am following various toppers on Quora!

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh
    OMG ..., i can't explain how and what i felt reading your post .it was simply amazing ..got goosebumps. many many congratulations to you .

    on a different note though ( i'm sure you are not gonna read it 😆) ..i always found it difficult to pronounce your name ..is it choti like braid or choti like buffalo or its chhoti like small 😛.

  • @Exo said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh
    OMG ..., i can't explain how and what i felt reading your post .it was simply amazing ..got goosebumps. many many congratulations to you .

    on a different note though ( i'm sure you are not gonna read it 😆) ..i always found it difficult to pronounce your name ..is it choti like braid or choti like buffalo or its chhoti like small 😛.

    It's यो यो चोटी सिंह. Braid /शिखा 😉

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh
    Ohhh okay .. so stupid of me 🤦♀

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh This is so emotional and inspiring. 🙂

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh sirjee believe me or not... I too felt very proud when I got to knew that you cleared with AIR 104..Was very very happy... Still remember that 'MAA Papapji maaf Kar dena ',comment you wrote after last year's failure...

    This writeup made me even more emotional...habe never rooted so much for anyone else's results... 🙂

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh such a goosebumps giving wala emotional write up sir. hearty congratulations .

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh Sir Jee Bahut Bahut Mubarak Ho!! I cried after reading your post. Very very happy for you sir. God bless you!

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh Congratulations and best wishes for your bright future..

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh
    अद्भुत 🙏
    So proud of you!
    You're an inspiration. 😊

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    It was a not so normal evening. Like earlier 2 3 days I was busy in building MAAHOL in online telegram result bakar group. Bakar was at full fledged mode. Insider info was being collected and sent at thunderstorm speed. But deeper down after 4pm it got clear to me that IT'S COMING. Heart beat started increasing first time now.

    My bhaiya and bhabhi g came from their respective jobs and made tea for all of us. They knew ki result aane wala h. So they enquired few times. I got irrirated due to peak of frustration. I asked them to leave me alone for next 1-1.5 hours after finishing tea. Told them to trust me that like last year Even in WORST CASE scenario "I WILL NOT DO SUICIDE." And will tell them about it first and they should leave me alone for few hours again post telling that.
    I was blunt (like I always has been in such things) , they saw me once with empathetic eyes and left for their room and closed the bolt. My eyes was back to screen and heart back to basics.

    Soon after about 15 minutes, suddenly when MAAHOL was on peak, live reporting was being done by friends at UPSC- the HOLY PDF appears on group. "It's out." Message followed.

    Like well discussed SOP in such tense situation first task was to verify it's genuinity before even opening (few sadistic people always upload fake pdf in groups at peak moments ). But soon in seconds it was verified as genuine as my close friend only uploaded it who was a co admin and live from upsc.

    With one tap file was downloaded instantly. Again 2nd rung of SOPs followed ie NEVER DO CTRL+F in holy pdf to avoid heart fail if that tiiiiiinnnnnggg of NO RESULT FOUND happens. So went for SCROLL DOWN TOP TO BOTTOM APPROACH.

    Felt like peeing at this point. Suddenly god and faith become dominant and single pray of "HEY BHAGWAN IS BAAR KRWA DENA PLEASE. UN BUDDE MAA BAAP K LIYE IS BAAR KRWA DENA PLEASE. " started oozing out of heart.

    1st page scanning completed. Bullshitttt No result found. Entire past experience of failure revived before eyes in microseconds.

    Seconds later, somehow took the courage to next level. Scanned 2nd page. Again same result. FATE ACCEPTED. Himmat nahi ho rhi thi ki aage dekhu bhi. Lga ki IAS m nhi hua matlab story repeated this year too. Stopped scrolling for seconds , felt like I should cry. But couldn't gain enough courage to even do it.

    After 5 6 seconds, again somehow moved to 3rd page. And OHHH MY GOD ! THE HIGHEST AWAITED MOMENT OF LIFE ARRIVES. The unique name was there at 104th. Couldn't believe it. Matched roll number, yes it was same. But couldn't believe it. Closed my eyes and saw again it was still there. Buttt couldn't believe this. Closed the pdf. Went again to group. Downloaded a new pdf instantly. Saw it directly on 3rd page. It was there ! Yakeen ho chuka tha ki IT HAPPENED. Felt like crying, but couldn't cry. Just everything stopped in surrounding. A strange numbness ensued.

    Just woke up somehow. Knocked at bhaiya-bhabhi room door. They were more eager than me to open it. Within seconds bhaiya and bhabhi g was watching my face to hear that. I waited for 2 seconds. Bhaiya signed "kya rha? " I just laid down on floor on his feets. Said "104th rank Bhaiya !"

    Bhaiya shouted at his best. Hugged me. In seconds entire family was in tears. I showed pdf to bhaiya bhabhi and asked them to verify name. They knew it's real. Bhaiya was hugging and kissing me.

    I just dialled a 6 year long awaited call. "SWEET HOME" Calling... Screen displayed. Other side Baapu g picked up instantly "Haa bete kya rha ?" (He was waiting for it for 2 3 days, he knew I will call from my number only in one case!). The best words of life from my mouth ensued " Pranaam papa g. Mubarak ho Beta collector ban gya aapka. Got AIR 104th in CSE." Father shouted at his besttt and asked again to reverify what he just heared. I just asked MAA G KHA H UNKO BHI BTANA H. Papa was outside home, he said "ghar jaake krwata hu bete. Proud of you."

    Father ran towards home. But with a doctor neighbor. First mom was given an injection to calm nerves as she is a heart patient. Then told the good news. By then entire village neighbors was on my home door and celebrations followed. In between I called my Tau g. Same followed there too.

    I was again just strangely numb. Bowed before Kanha g in my room. Bhaiya bhabhi was still crying and calling to other family members to tell about result.

    What happened there after in unexplainable in words. Don't remember who called and what said. I just keep saying THANKYOU G THANK-YOU.

    Life changed thereafter. CHANGED A LOT. An Unforgettable experience.

    Tere patience ko salaam. Nahi dekha tere jaisa insaan.

    Jaari rakhna aage bhi ye sab.

  • @mahi2501 that comment tears me apart, even today.

    So much our parents suffer, silently for our failure.

    Bhagwan kare fir kisi ko sorry n bolna pade...The one who deserves must go through...Aayega...apna time aayega ☺

    Ye yaad rahna chahiye

  • Congrats to @doodlebean and @IWRA. @doodlebean Mam' after reading your write up, I remembered Mahadevi Verma and Bhism sahani. I feel so proud when I see people writing in Hindi so well. I will also begin my old habit of writing again. Also, congrats @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh , sir ji I have met you few times during SFG and answer writing sessions. You may not recognize me, but still, you have inspired me. Following your path
    #Humhongekamyabekdin.

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    It was a not so normal evening. Like earlier 2 3 days I was busy in building MAAHOL in online telegram result bakar group. Bakar was at full fledged mode. Insider info was being collected and sent at thunderstorm speed. But deeper down after 4pm it got clear to me that IT'S COMING. Heart beat started increasing first time now.

    My bhaiya and bhabhi g came from their respective jobs and made tea for all of us. They knew ki result aane wala h. So they enquired few times. I got irrirated due to peak of frustration. I asked them to leave me alone for next 1-1.5 hours after finishing tea. Told them to trust me that like last year Even in WORST CASE scenario "I WILL NOT DO SUICIDE." And will tell them about it first and they should leave me alone for few hours again post telling that.
    I was blunt (like I always has been in such things) , they saw me once with empathetic eyes and left for their room and closed the bolt. My eyes was back to screen and heart back to basics.

    Soon after about 15 minutes, suddenly when MAAHOL was on peak, live reporting was being done by friends at UPSC- the HOLY PDF appears on group. "It's out." Message followed.

    Like well discussed SOP in such tense situation first task was to verify it's genuinity before even opening (few sadistic people always upload fake pdf in groups at peak moments ). But soon in seconds it was verified as genuine as my close friend only uploaded it who was a co admin and live from upsc.

    With one tap file was downloaded instantly. Again 2nd rung of SOPs followed ie NEVER DO CTRL+F in holy pdf to avoid heart fail if that tiiiiiinnnnnggg of NO RESULT FOUND happens. So went for SCROLL DOWN TOP TO BOTTOM APPROACH.

    Felt like peeing at this point. Suddenly god and faith become dominant and single pray of "HEY BHAGWAN IS BAAR KRWA DENA PLEASE. UN BUDDE MAA BAAP K LIYE IS BAAR KRWA DENA PLEASE. " started oozing out of heart.

    1st page scanning completed. Bullshitttt No result found. Entire past experience of failure revived before eyes in microseconds.

    Seconds later, somehow took the courage to next level. Scanned 2nd page. Again same result. FATE ACCEPTED. Himmat nahi ho rhi thi ki aage dekhu bhi. Lga ki IAS m nhi hua matlab story repeated this year too. Stopped scrolling for seconds , felt like I should cry. But couldn't gain enough courage to even do it.

    After 5 6 seconds, again somehow moved to 3rd page. And OHHH MY GOD ! THE HIGHEST AWAITED MOMENT OF LIFE ARRIVES. The unique name was there at 104th. Couldn't believe it. Matched roll number, yes it was same. But couldn't believe it. Closed my eyes and saw again it was still there. Buttt couldn't believe this. Closed the pdf. Went again to group. Downloaded a new pdf instantly. Saw it directly on 3rd page. It was there ! Yakeen ho chuka tha ki IT HAPPENED. Felt like crying, but couldn't cry. Just everything stopped in surrounding. A strange numbness ensued.

    Just woke up somehow. Knocked at bhaiya-bhabhi room door. They were more eager than me to open it. Within seconds bhaiya and bhabhi g was watching my face to hear that. I waited for 2 seconds. Bhaiya signed "kya rha? " I just laid down on floor on his feets. Said "104th rank Bhaiya !"

    Bhaiya shouted at his best. Hugged me. In seconds entire family was in tears. I showed pdf to bhaiya bhabhi and asked them to verify name. They knew it's real. Bhaiya was hugging and kissing me.

    I just dialled a 6 year long awaited call. "SWEET HOME" Calling... Screen displayed. Other side Baapu g picked up instantly "Haa bete kya rha ?" (He was waiting for it for 2 3 days, he knew I will call from my number only in one case!). The best words of life from my mouth ensued " Pranaam papa g. Mubarak ho Beta collector ban gya aapka. Got AIR 104th in CSE." Father shouted at his besttt and asked again to reverify what he just heared. I just asked MAA G KHA H UNKO BHI BTANA H. Papa was outside home, he said "ghar jaake krwata hu bete. Proud of you."

    Father ran towards home. But with a doctor neighbor. First mom was given an injection to calm nerves as she is a heart patient. Then told the good news. By then entire village neighbors was on my home door and celebrations followed. In between I called my Tau g. Same followed there too.

    I was again just strangely numb. Bowed before Kanha g in my room. Bhaiya bhabhi was still crying and calling to other family members to tell about result.

    What happened there after in unexplainable in words. Don't remember who called and what said. I just keep saying THANKYOU G THANK-YOU.

    Life changed thereafter. CHANGED A LOT. An Unforgettable experience.

    Shabd nhi hai, literally i cried after reading this
    God blessed u

  • @sharma-sankalp15491 said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    It was a not so normal evening. Like earlier 2 3 days I was busy in building MAAHOL in online telegram result bakar group. Bakar was at full fledged mode. Insider info was being collected and sent at thunderstorm speed. But deeper down after 4pm it got clear to me that IT'S COMING. Heart beat started increasing first time now.

    My bhaiya and bhabhi g came from their respective jobs and made tea for all of us. They knew ki result aane wala h. So they enquired few times. I got irrirated due to peak of frustration. I asked them to leave me alone for next 1-1.5 hours after finishing tea. Told them to trust me that like last year Even in WORST CASE scenario "I WILL NOT DO SUICIDE." And will tell them about it first and they should leave me alone for few hours again post telling that.
    I was blunt (like I always has been in such things) , they saw me once with empathetic eyes and left for their room and closed the bolt. My eyes was back to screen and heart back to basics.

    Soon after about 15 minutes, suddenly when MAAHOL was on peak, live reporting was being done by friends at UPSC- the HOLY PDF appears on group. "It's out." Message followed.

    Like well discussed SOP in such tense situation first task was to verify it's genuinity before even opening (few sadistic people always upload fake pdf in groups at peak moments ). But soon in seconds it was verified as genuine as my close friend only uploaded it who was a co admin and live from upsc.

    With one tap file was downloaded instantly. Again 2nd rung of SOPs followed ie NEVER DO CTRL+F in holy pdf to avoid heart fail if that tiiiiiinnnnnggg of NO RESULT FOUND happens. So went for SCROLL DOWN TOP TO BOTTOM APPROACH.

    Felt like peeing at this point. Suddenly god and faith become dominant and single pray of "HEY BHAGWAN IS BAAR KRWA DENA PLEASE. UN BUDDE MAA BAAP K LIYE IS BAAR KRWA DENA PLEASE. " started oozing out of heart.

    1st page scanning completed. Bullshitttt No result found. Entire past experience of failure revived before eyes in microseconds.

    Seconds later, somehow took the courage to next level. Scanned 2nd page. Again same result. FATE ACCEPTED. Himmat nahi ho rhi thi ki aage dekhu bhi. Lga ki IAS m nhi hua matlab story repeated this year too. Stopped scrolling for seconds , felt like I should cry. But couldn't gain enough courage to even do it.

    After 5 6 seconds, again somehow moved to 3rd page. And OHHH MY GOD ! THE HIGHEST AWAITED MOMENT OF LIFE ARRIVES. The unique name was there at 104th. Couldn't believe it. Matched roll number, yes it was same. But couldn't believe it. Closed my eyes and saw again it was still there. Buttt couldn't believe this. Closed the pdf. Went again to group. Downloaded a new pdf instantly. Saw it directly on 3rd page. It was there ! Yakeen ho chuka tha ki IT HAPPENED. Felt like crying, but couldn't cry. Just everything stopped in surrounding. A strange numbness ensued.

    Just woke up somehow. Knocked at bhaiya-bhabhi room door. They were more eager than me to open it. Within seconds bhaiya and bhabhi g was watching my face to hear that. I waited for 2 seconds. Bhaiya signed "kya rha? " I just laid down on floor on his feets. Said "104th rank Bhaiya !"

    Bhaiya shouted at his best. Hugged me. In seconds entire family was in tears. I showed pdf to bhaiya bhabhi and asked them to verify name. They knew it's real. Bhaiya was hugging and kissing me.

    I just dialled a 6 year long awaited call. "SWEET HOME" Calling... Screen displayed. Other side Baapu g picked up instantly "Haa bete kya rha ?" (He was waiting for it for 2 3 days, he knew I will call from my number only in one case!). The best words of life from my mouth ensued " Pranaam papa g. Mubarak ho Beta collector ban gya aapka. Got AIR 104th in CSE." Father shouted at his besttt and asked again to reverify what he just heared. I just asked MAA G KHA H UNKO BHI BTANA H. Papa was outside home, he said "ghar jaake krwata hu bete. Proud of you."

    Father ran towards home. But with a doctor neighbor. First mom was given an injection to calm nerves as she is a heart patient. Then told the good news. By then entire village neighbors was on my home door and celebrations followed. In between I called my Tau g. Same followed there too.

    I was again just strangely numb. Bowed before Kanha g in my room. Bhaiya bhabhi was still crying and calling to other family members to tell about result.

    What happened there after in unexplainable in words. Don't remember who called and what said. I just keep saying THANKYOU G THANK-YOU.

    Life changed thereafter. CHANGED A LOT. An Unforgettable experience.

    Shabd nhi hai, literally i cried after reading this
    God blessed u

    Man,

    I cried too when I first spoke to him after his selection. Everyone keeps asking me every year. Yo Yo ka kya hua?

  • @root

    same jab result aya tab 1st thought yo yo ka hi aya nd dodle bean too

  • @Raillife said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    @root

    same jab result aya tab 1st thought yo yo ka hi aya nd dodle bean too

    Well guess you’re confusing me for someone else. I’m 2015 batch. 😊

  • @madeye said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    Congrats to @doodlebean and @IWRA. @doodlebean Mam' after reading your write up, I remembered Mahadevi Verma and Bhism sahani. I feel so proud when I see people writing in Hindi so well. I will also begin my old habit of writing again. Also, congrats @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh , sir ji I have met you few times during SFG and answer writing sessions. You may not recognize me, but still, you have inspired me. Following your path
    #Humhongekamyabekdin.

    Thank you so much. Some big compliment there. Big fan of Mahadevi Verma , Premchand and Bhishm Sahani. Would love to read you someday 😊

  • @doodlebean ohh my bad

  • @safari Yes, I diligently followed it for over a year. Since discipline enhances my focus. I cant work otherwise.

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