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What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?

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  • @Urvashi said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    @doodlebean adbhut... hindi jo josh jagati hai uski baat hi alag hai.. maaf kijiyega abhi angrezi shabdo me hi type kar rahi hu.. par aapne bahut hi badhiya likha hai.. Diary likhna zari rakhiyega.. ye kitab me tabdil ho sakti hai, kya pata bhavishya me hume aapki kitaab padhne ko mile... bahut hi rochak tha.. ! 🙂 🙂

    Jee .. बहुत शुक्रिया 😊

  • @IWRA said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    @doodlebean said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    स्कूल का एनुअल डे फंक्शन था . एक पूरी रात उसने जाग कर काट दी थी . हो भी क्यों ना , आँखों में इतने सपने जो थे . आखिर लगातार सातवे वर्ष उसने पूरे विद्यालय में टॉप किया था . लगता था ये रात कब ख़तम होगी और सुबह वह किसी VIP से कम ना होगी . पिताजी का सीना गर्व से चौड़ा होगा और माँ फूली ना समायेंगी जब तीसरे मैडल के लिए उसका नाम पुकारा जाएगा . हर ओर तालियों की गडग़ड़ाहट होगी और वो किसी राजकुमारी की तरह स्टेज पर जाएगी .उतरते ही बधाई देने वालो का तांता लग जाएगा . आखिर वो अपनी टीचर्स की भी तो लाड़ली थी .

    पता चला जिलाधिकारी महोदय आ रही है पुरस्कार वितरण के लिए तो ख़ुशी दुगुनी हो गयी . अधीरता से उनके आगमन का इंतज़ार चल रहा था . परन्तु यह क्या मेरी सारी रौशनी तो यह ले गयी . मैडम का आगमन क्या हुआ हर तरफ उथल पुथल मच गयी . वो सोचती रही की यह कैसी महिला है जो आगे चल रही है और पीछे वर्दी वाले मर्द . ऐसी महिलाये भी होती है क्या ! चाहे वह उसके उस ख़ास दिन की लाइमलाइट ले गयी हो परन्तु उसको वो किसी परी से कम ना मालुम पड़ रही थी . पिताजी जी ने लाड़ली से पूछा की इनाम में क्या चाहिए तो बचपने में बस यही मुँह से निकला - " पापा ! मैडम जैसा कैसे बनते है ? "

    ....'जय हिन्द मैडम' की आवाज़ से तंद्रा टूटी तो वो इतिहास के पन्नो से निकली और देखा सिपाही सलूट जड़े गाढ़ी का दरवाज़ा खोले खड़ा है . वह हौले से मुस्कुरायी और काम पर निकल पड़ी .

    Ma'am, I am a fan of your writing

    You should write a novel...wo bhi Hindi me.. 😊

    Aap khareed rahe hai naa pehli prati ... fir zarur likhenge 😀

  • @IWRA said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    @doodlebean said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    @Progeny said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    @doodlebean afsos hai ki hindi ki mahatta kam kya khatam si ho gayi hai. Warna aisi lady Premchand ko padh kar bada accha lagta hai.

    आभार 🙏

    So, she has got two names now..

    Lady Follet ( pub ad junta)
    And Lady Premchand 😁

    How can you forget doodlebean 😁

  • @doodlebean accha hai !!

  • @doodlebean ye bhi acha hai madam

  • @HAZE thankyou for writing madam... also
    Thanks for writing in detail about your PT ....

  • @IWRA thank you so much !!!

  • @doodlebean yes..If I get a signed copy 😁

  • @doodlebean said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    स्कूल का एनुअल डे फंक्शन था . एक पूरी रात उसने जाग कर काट दी थी . हो भी क्यों ना , आँखों में इतने सपने जो थे . आखिर लगातार सातवे वर्ष उसने पूरे विद्यालय में टॉप किया था . लगता था ये रात कब ख़तम होगी और सुबह वह किसी VIP से कम ना होगी . पिताजी का सीना गर्व से चौड़ा होगा और माँ फूली ना समायेंगी जब तीसरे मैडल के लिए उसका नाम पुकारा जाएगा . हर ओर तालियों की गडग़ड़ाहट होगी और वो किसी राजकुमारी की तरह स्टेज पर जाएगी .उतरते ही बधाई देने वालो का तांता लग जाएगा . आखिर वो अपनी टीचर्स की भी तो लाड़ली थी .

    पता चला जिलाधिकारी महोदय आ रही है पुरस्कार वितरण के लिए तो ख़ुशी दुगुनी हो गयी . अधीरता से उनके आगमन का इंतज़ार चल रहा था . परन्तु यह क्या मेरी सारी रौशनी तो यह ले गयी . मैडम का आगमन क्या हुआ हर तरफ उथल पुथल मच गयी . वो सोचती रही की यह कैसी महिला है जो आगे चल रही है और पीछे वर्दी वाले मर्द . ऐसी महिलाये भी होती है क्या ! चाहे वह उसके उस ख़ास दिन की लाइमलाइट ले गयी हो परन्तु उसको वो किसी परी से कम ना मालुम पड़ रही थी . पिताजी जी ने लाड़ली से पूछा की इनाम में क्या चाहिए तो बचपने में बस यही मुँह से निकला - " पापा ! मैडम जैसा कैसे बनते है ? "

    ....'जय हिन्द मैडम' की आवाज़ से तंद्रा टूटी तो वो इतिहास के पन्नो से निकली और देखा सिपाही सलूट जड़े गाढ़ी का दरवाज़ा खोले खड़ा है . वह हौले से मुस्कुरायी और काम पर निकल पड़ी .

    Madam jaisa kaise bante hain.......Sapnon se bhare Naina !! 🙂

  • It was a not so normal evening. Like earlier 2 3 days I was busy in building MAAHOL in online telegram result bakar group. Bakar was at full fledged mode. Insider info was being collected and sent at thunderstorm speed. But deeper down after 4pm it got clear to me that IT'S COMING. Heart beat started increasing first time now.

    My bhaiya and bhabhi g came from their respective jobs and made tea for all of us. They knew ki result aane wala h. So they enquired few times. I got irrirated due to peak of frustration. I asked them to leave me alone for next 1-1.5 hours after finishing tea. Told them to trust me that like last year Even in WORST CASE scenario "I WILL NOT DO SUICIDE." And will tell them about it first and they should leave me alone for few hours again post telling that.
    I was blunt (like I always has been in such things) , they saw me once with empathetic eyes and left for their room and closed the bolt. My eyes was back to screen and heart back to basics.

    Soon after about 15 minutes, suddenly when MAAHOL was on peak, live reporting was being done by friends at UPSC- the HOLY PDF appears on group. "It's out." Message followed.

    Like well discussed SOP in such tense situation first task was to verify it's genuinity before even opening (few sadistic people always upload fake pdf in groups at peak moments ). But soon in seconds it was verified as genuine as my close friend only uploaded it who was a co admin and live from upsc.

    With one tap file was downloaded instantly. Again 2nd rung of SOPs followed ie NEVER DO CTRL+F in holy pdf to avoid heart fail if that tiiiiiinnnnnggg of NO RESULT FOUND happens. So went for SCROLL DOWN TOP TO BOTTOM APPROACH.

    Felt like peeing at this point. Suddenly god and faith become dominant and single pray of "HEY BHAGWAN IS BAAR KRWA DENA PLEASE. UN BUDDE MAA BAAP K LIYE IS BAAR KRWA DENA PLEASE. " started oozing out of heart.

    1st page scanning completed. Bullshitttt No result found. Entire past experience of failure revived before eyes in microseconds.

    Seconds later, somehow took the courage to next level. Scanned 2nd page. Again same result. FATE ACCEPTED. Himmat nahi ho rhi thi ki aage dekhu bhi. Lga ki IAS m nhi hua matlab story repeated this year too. Stopped scrolling for seconds , felt like I should cry. But couldn't gain enough courage to even do it.

    After 5 6 seconds, again somehow moved to 3rd page. And OHHH MY GOD ! THE HIGHEST AWAITED MOMENT OF LIFE ARRIVES. The unique name was there at 104th. Couldn't believe it. Matched roll number, yes it was same. But couldn't believe it. Closed my eyes and saw again it was still there. Buttt couldn't believe this. Closed the pdf. Went again to group. Downloaded a new pdf instantly. Saw it directly on 3rd page. It was there ! Yakeen ho chuka tha ki IT HAPPENED. Felt like crying, but couldn't cry. Just everything stopped in surrounding. A strange numbness ensued.

    Just woke up somehow. Knocked at bhaiya-bhabhi room door. They were more eager than me to open it. Within seconds bhaiya and bhabhi g was watching my face to hear that. I waited for 2 seconds. Bhaiya signed "kya rha? " I just laid down on floor on his feets. Said "104th rank Bhaiya !"

    Bhaiya shouted at his best. Hugged me. In seconds entire family was in tears. I showed pdf to bhaiya bhabhi and asked them to verify name. They knew it's real. Bhaiya was hugging and kissing me.

    I just dialled a 6 year long awaited call. "SWEET HOME" Calling... Screen displayed. Other side Baapu g picked up instantly "Haa bete kya rha ?" (He was waiting for it for 2 3 days, he knew I will call from my number only in one case!). The best words of life from my mouth ensued " Pranaam papa g. Mubarak ho Beta collector ban gya aapka. Got AIR 104th in CSE." Father shouted at his besttt and asked again to reverify what he just heared. I just asked MAA G KHA H UNKO BHI BTANA H. Papa was outside home, he said "ghar jaake krwata hu bete. Proud of you."

    Father ran towards home. But with a doctor neighbor. First mom was given an injection to calm nerves as she is a heart patient. Then told the good news. By then entire village neighbors was on my home door and celebrations followed. In between I called my Tau g. Same followed there too.

    I was again just strangely numb. Bowed before Kanha g in my room. Bhaiya bhabhi was still crying and calling to other family members to tell about result.

    What happened there after in unexplainable in words. Don't remember who called and what said. I just keep saying THANKYOU G THANK-YOU.

    Life changed thereafter. CHANGED A LOT. An Unforgettable experience.

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh ye padhke mere dimag me song chalne laga "Teeja tera rang tha mai to" of Chak de India.. Shahrukh khan ko us time dekh ke aasu nahi aye but ye padhke aa gye sir! Congrats!!

  • @HAZE
    https://economictimes.indiatimes.com/slideshows/nation-world/here-is-how-your-pin-code-is-decided/here-is-the-procedure/slideshow/57889793.cms

    madam i knew about this article and while reading your interview transcripts i came across question on this

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh thankyou sir g !!

  • @root
    sir i am not able to reach to the older post of this thread...like 1st comment or comments of similar number....
    only the last few comments of this thread is visiable to me...
    i am using win10 on lapi

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh wow. No words , bhai you really deserved it. Whole forumias community is having goosebumps and are proud of you

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh said in What is the first feeling you have when you see your name in the holy PDF of UPSC?:

    ke I always has been in such things) , they saw me once with empathetic eyes and left for their room and closed the bolt. My eyes was back to screen and heart back to basics.

    kya tau !! sachi me thora sa gala choke kardiya aapne...aur 2-3 drops rolled over my cheek .... 🙂
    bravo !!

    ps: this is nakli yo yo from that telegram gp. 🙂

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh You took us on an emotional ride, buddy. I don't think I have come across such a touching account before. God bless you. 🙏

  • @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh congrats once again!....aapne to emotional kar diya humko....🙂

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